The comings and goings in Stephland

Yes dear readers, it is true. The end is nearing, infact the end is on saturday. Saturday at 9:30pm on the ABC. The one and only good show on television will end and there will be none to follow in its stead. The West Wing shall be no more and quality television will cease to exist.
On another note HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Charlie for today: someone who will not actually be reading this, but it is the thought that counts. It shall be happy birthday to me soon aswell. Anzac day as a matter of fact. And I shall be 17. I don't want to be 17 though, cause it sounds weird. Seventeen. Hmm. I dont like it. I shall also be rising at the ripe old time of about 4:30 on the morning on my birthday to play at the dawn service at the local RSL club with my band. Its okay though as I can take comfort in the fact that it's my conductors birthday too, so there will be some sympathy involved.
Sadly my happy holidays shall be ending soon. The bliss of doing nothing shall be replaced by the stress of deadlines and essays. The fact that the holidays will end soon reminds me of the fact that I have heaps of work to complete that I haven't actually started. So the stress had started already! I have only 4 days in which to complete an entire topic of harder trigonometry for extension maths. That'll be fun.
I am curious as to whether the friend situation will have changed any back at school. There have been quite alot of strained relationships and drifting which has not been fun to be a part of. But change is inevitable over time however much we dont want it to. It sucks though. I wish people would just stay the same. That would make me a much happier person.
I have now sucessfully completed my 50 hours of learners driving. I drove for 7hours and 45 minutes yesterday. Very tiring. And I'm quite worried now as my dad thinks he should book my driving test for like next week which is not good considering I can't even park yet. And after seeing one friend go though it already, it looks far to stressing. Also not good is the fact that it seems as though it is expected for me to drive to school afew times a week. I was under the impression that my parents wanted me to get my P's and then they'd be happy, but no. Apparently I have to continue driving which is jsut great. I can just catch the bus. What a waste of petrol.
Well thats enough for now. Until next time...

Well here I am again, I can never seem to be bothered to write here, but am always annoyed when no one else has updated theirs.
So I'm enjoying school but its annoying cause i'm not doing nearly enough work as I should be doing. According to my extension english teacher I don't hand in work all the time because i'm a "gifted and talented perfectionist" which i'm not. Why does everyone say that? My rooms always messy! Don't perfectionists have clean rooms? I mean I like it when its clean and I like cleaning it, but I have trouble keeping it that way. Hmm well I appear to be being called for dinner.
This is quite a pathetically short post but there's no reason to waste all those words. oh well.
Post away I shall

Okay, here goes, third time lucky.
You know its really hard writing what you think in these things, when you know people are going to read it, and they're going to be all sensitive and stuff. God i wish people would just get over it! Grr. Right. Anyway.
So my cast is off, and I'm being all physiotherapyed. Which is rather painful might I add. I have to do like 30 reps of these exercises (there are 4 different ones) three times a day. Thats like 360 I purposely have to move my arm whilst feeling like someone is stabbing me in the elbow. This is going to be fun!
I think that I really want to join an awesome orchestra when I'm older. And when I can play music better. But I'd love to be part of like a band that is really good, and enters in competitions and everything. Camden High school band is just a joke now, but I still have to go to it. I still love to play. I just hate it how everytime i mention it, my friends all have to snigger and laugh at how crap the band is. Its really mean. Its not like they're any better than the people in the band. I hate it, cause I still like being in the band, and the atmosphere of it all, but they just laugh at how stupid it is, and call us a joke. And yes I am aware of how I mentioned just before that we are a joke, but thats like a whole black people thing. you know? You can't walk up to a black guy and say haha your black. It just isn't done. But black guys can walk up to you and say haha i'm black. And they can do whatever the hell they want. If you get what I mean. watch scrubs.
urgh!!! no dont. dont watch scrubs. I am so sick of everything being about television!!!!!!!!! Every single thing people say is related to television. If there was no television people would have nothing to talk about. Its infuriating yet comforting at the same time. Horrible cause its there, but good cause its always something to fall back on in conversation if you ever run out of things to say.
I'm fairly tired at the moment and i'm not exactly sure what i'm saying, so i'm just going to leave now, and hope all is well. and yeah.
I love thunderstorms!!!
BRING ON WINTER!!!
I also feel a scarf fettish coming on...

Well, I've had some wonderful new this afternoon.
I went to get my arm x-rayed once more ready for tomorrow when I was told I would get my cast taken off, but apparently its not healed yet.
Two more weeks.
Yipee.
I'm jumping for joy.
So that sucks.
But it was good cause my dad took me to the noodle house for lunch. I had satay. God I love satay. And you know what makes satay even better? Egg noodles. Yum!
And also when I got home I discovered that my clarinet, saxophone and flute were back from being serviced. :) They're so shiny. So that was awesome
And then Mum brought home some LeRice because she knew i'd be unhappy to make me feel better. I love my mum. I also love LeRice. If you're reading this and you haven't tryed it. Do. Its sooooo good. Its in the yoghurt section.
So yeah.
Do you know what annoys me beyond all annoyance? Except for someone who tells you whats going to happen at the end of a book that you are reading, are going to read, or perhaps someday will read. ALL PEOPLE WHO DO THIS SHOULD BE SHOT. After being hanged, drawn and quartered of course. They deserve no mercy.
But anyhow, back to the start of my whole point. I hate people who are never happy. Seriously. Its just plain irritating. If you're behind in homework, or you have no money or whatever, its not the end of the world! Why can't some people see that.
You can't wake up in the morning and watch a beautiful sunrise without a smile plastered across your face, and then think, oh whats the point, its only going to set again. If you get what i'm poking at here.
Just, you know, smile and be happy.
I got to go to band last night which was awesome. I can still play with a cast on so its all good. Well I don't know if i'm supposed to, but I can, so why not.
But thats not all the awesomeness. I discovered that we got a new piece and its the Chronicles of Narnia!!! I am so excited, I can't wait to get it. That is like my favourite soundtrack. Harry Gregson-William - Best composer ever!!!
I got the Corpse Bride Soundtrack on the weekend. That is such a cute little movie. And the songs are good. Danny Elfman is also an awesome composer, but that goes without saying.
I'm itching to get the De JaVu soundtrack. The music was Harry Gregson-Williams, and it hasn't come out yet. There better be one! That was an awesome movie.
Well thats all I can be bothered to say at the moment.

So I haven't updated for a while, and no one else seem to have done so either, so I guess I have no choice but to write somethings.
Well I did have to get a cast, so thats been on for about two weeks, and I can not wait until I get it off. One week today! Woo! But it has been better than just having the sling, because with it, i didn't know if i was moving my arm the wrong way, but now, well I can't cause its held in place.
So everything is splendid at the moment.
I am loving school. Senior School is soooooo much better. We get better uniforms, a better place to sit (senior quad), its so much quieter than last year which is awesome, then we get to learn about stuff we care about and the teachers also have more respect for you.
Here are my subjects
Line 1 - English
Line 2 - Maths
Line 3 - Chemistry
Line 4 - Modern History
Line 5 - Ancient History
Line 6 - German
Extension Maths
Extension English
So all up i'm doing 14 units, which is alot, but I will most likely have to drop one subject before the end of the year. Mostly because 12 units is the recommended and apparently 14 is far too much work.
My favourite subject would be Extension English and German
I love english, and German is such a fun subject. Its the only one(other than maths and chem) where i'm not going to be writing huge essays, plus I enjoy it so big bonus.
Also, to my surprise, I am liking maths again, which is awesome. Considering I spent the last two years trying to survive through my maths lessons by imagining many horrible and painful ways my teacher could come to an end. But this year I have a good teacher, and my liking is rekindled. YAY!
So yes, all is going well.
Except for modern History, where I didn't get the teacher I wanted, and my class is full of stoners who should have left last year and the teacher I do have is a idiot who likes to teach by jumping up and down on tables singing in french!!!!!!!!
But lets not go into that.
So this friday is the school swimming carnival, which I will most definately not be attending - i wouldn't dream of it even if my arm wasn't casted - instead i will be discovering a new TV show with my friend. Battlestar Gallactica. I hope I like it. I think I will. Sci - Fi, whats not to like?
I sent a parcel to my japanese host family and I got an email from them so that was good. I also got another email from another Japanese friend who I hadn't heard from so also awesome.
Well I think that should do for now...

Some stupid doctor I went to see told me I couldn't play my instruments for at least 4 till 8 weeks. 4 weeks!!! I'm going crazy already

So, as you can probably see, its been quite a while since my last post. And thats mostly because last Sunday week I kind of broke my arm. A fact which is apparently rather hilarious to quite afew of my friends. And yes I do hope you all suffer excruciating pain also.
So yeah, thats been fun. So the me not posting is actually mostly to do with the fact that i'm a 10 finger typist who actually types how you're supposed to and this one fingert stuff is killing me. I mean yes i do know where all thekeys are, but its like snails pace with one hand. so no fixing of mistakes either because frankly i can't be bothered. Yeah and if anyones interested in how i broke my arms its an extremely moving story involving a broken down car, a very cute baby, a runaway train and fire, but lets save that for another day.
So in other news today was the first day back at school. A day i have been looking forward to for aages. Yes for all wondering I am a nerd. It so did not disappoint. It was so good. Being a senior is awesome. We even get a better uniform. It was always going to be fierce competition amongst the girls, for the shortest skirt, and boy were they out in show today. actually quite disturbing to be truthful,but hey i suppose thats all some of them have got going for themselves.
So peer support was alright, until mrs gallal decided to bring me and alex two obnoxious stoners in the making. so that was fun. but i'm sure they'll get whats coming to them soon enough.
I'm so excited about my english classes though. I have two awesome teachers, a good advanced class (minus cameron, cause he's really loud hence distracting) and an awesome extension class where our stimulus sounds so good.
So i hope tomorrow is just as good. And we even have a table in the quad which will be awesome. but touch wood, cause i just know someone will steal it from us.
Oh well turf wars are always fun.
So heres hoping tomorrow is as good as today was. but i doubt it, considering tomorrow is sports day and mrs reeves is a complete bitch. She'd probably put me in a grade team and make me play sling and all.
Oh well. Nothing can stop new beginning happiness!
You can't stop the signal!!!

And so another post begins.
Well I didn't really mention Christmas in my last post, but I shall now.
My christmas day was awesome. I kind of got my presents this year with my trip to Japan, and my piano (which i love) alex steinbach. God its the best. But anyway. So we didn't really do presents. I did get like 4 books. But instead my parents said they would buy some stuff for the house. So we got a new fridge which was desperately needed and my dad bought a home theatre system. its going to be awesome, but we haven't hooked it up yet.
The actual day was the best too. Spent eating far too much food, but with good friends. The atmosphere was so good.
My friends from Victoria are still here. Jordan is playing his new X Box 360 game and Claire is sleeping.
Its awesome having them up. The whole family is just the best.
They brought stacks of Dvd's with them most of which I hadn't seen.
So far i've watched Pitch Dark(very possibly pitch black) but its something to do with the chronicles of Riddick. It was pretty bad, but I like vin diesel cause he has a cool sounding voice, and he always has mad characters.
Then theres AeonFlux, which I loved. It was set in the future after a virus wiped out 99% of the population and there is only one city left on earth. Then theres the government that is left basically controlling them all, then the rebels called the monachans. Its really good.
then today claire bought silent hill. We just watched it before. She loves it. I didn't really say it but god its crap. haha. it was actually so crap it was funny. but it had an awesome music score. all horror movies seem to. although i think part of it was kind of ruined when the chicken dance came blaring from the speakers outside. mum came across the bargain cd bin. $2. let me tell you here and now, that there is a reason they are so cheap. It was hard to be caught up in the horror when shouts of "and shake your bum!" were to be heard.
Well best be off. Mostly because I'm leaving guests unattended and also because its hard to type with these damn fake nails. it was a spur of the moment thing for the formal. now i'm stuck with them. oh well.
such is life

Well here I am once again. Last night our friends who were coming up for christmas arrived. It was good. We sat around and talked for a while, then the parents went up to our neighbours christmas party. Us kids stayed home and played Jordans X-Box 360 for a while. Halo 2. It was awesome. The wireless controllers are so crazy.
I'm having a sort of New Years Eve gathering. Hopefully that should be fun. I hope my friends and our visitors will mix well. I think they should. Well I know this is a short entry but I must be off.
Oh and by the way, new Harry Potter title announced "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows"
Crap title if you ask me.
oh well
adios

Well here I am once again, ready for a fresh start.
I even made some colourful changes. Thats about as far as I could go though. I tried for a picture, but thats just beyond me. I'm not very adept at the internet. oh well.
So I have spent probably the last hour reading friends pages - two I didn't know existed and one I didn't know had been updated. I have come to one simple conclusion. These people are incredible. I guess the people you love will never cease to amaze you. I knew my friends were all brilliant, but these people are truly inspiring. Aren't we all just so wrapped up in our own lives. We spend all our time thinking so deeply about things, but you never really think about all those others out there just the same as you.
Its amazing how so many of the things I was reading about in these three journals are things that I feel so strongly about myself. Issues such as todays ideal body image, terrorism, life, death, people in general. Just things that matter. Things that should be spoken of.
One topic that came up was my recent school formal, yes something completely uninteresting but, i found the opinions on the matter most read-worthy. It is so true what was said though. Everyone was wrapped up in themselves as usual, no one really commented on how nice others looked, and those comments that were truly meant were lost among the meaningless banter. Those öh you look nice comments, more courtesy than actual belief hid those truly heartfelt words.
Then there were those people who completely disregard all that is right and proper. Its true that no matter what wrapper something is in its still exactly the same on the inside. People dressed in gowns jumping up and down like mindless drones acting like they were at some pathetic dance club rather than a formal event. It was truly sickening to watch.
Well isn't this an interesting development. I have just discovered i'm terrified of christmas beetles, and here I am sitting in the one room in the house with a light on. So I sit here breathing in the comforting fumes of insect killer whilst these creatures fly around my head.
So as I mentioned in my last post I went for my L's? Well I got them. I spent about four months not driving. I just didn't want to start. Finally my mum booked me a driving lesson, forcing me to get started. I've done about 10 hours now. Everywhere I go with my mother I drive. She is just trying to help me get my hours up, get my licence and then she doesn't really mind if I never drive again. I absoloutely hate it. When I say that it always seems to prompt "why, are you scared or something?" from others. The only true answer I can give to that is yes. Every single time I drive out of my driveway and on to the road I am completely terrified. I would rather be anywhere else than on the road.
I mentioned this at a small gathering I was at the other day and one of my friends actually knew the reason, well remembered the reason more like it. And I was really surprised. It meant alot that someone actually remembered.
You see about 3 or 4 years ago I was in a car accident. Now compared to just about every other accident ever, this was nothing. No casualties, no injuries, no nothing. But one second it was just my mum driving me to school, the next it was halfway up a bank across the other side of the road in the car on top of a broken tree, reaching around searching for my glasses which had flung off my face and trying to pry open my crumpled car door. But it was so fast. It was over before I had time to think. But when I look back and remember I can feel the first hit into the guard raid, the crunching of the car, and hanging on as it spun round and around, as if it was in slow motion. Its weird. I suppose its kind of like I knew what was happening but I didn't accept it at the time.
So that was that. My dad picked me up and took me to school like normal and it was just like anyother day. The only difference was a written off car and the next day whiplash so painful I couldn't move my neck. It was no ones fault. There was oil on the road. It is slippery every time there is a millimeter of rain and a crash every time but no one does anything about it. Three people have been killed there, the town has had countless petitions, but nothing has happened. The speed still stays at 100. Though I do about 60. But thats just it. Because I have crashed in that particular spot I slow down there, but what about all those other places? What about the other people? You can just never know. Thats what I hate. I am terrified that everyone time someone I know gets into a car that they won't walk back out of it. That their trip will end in either an ambulance or on a one way trip to the morgue.
You drive along and see the crosses on the side of the road. You see the fading flowers. The fading tributes. Everytime I see one it makes me shudder. On my morning bus route on the way to school right next to one particular stop there is a white cross with faded flowers and black letters "Julie". I don't know who julie is. I don't know what happened to her. How she died. But still every morning as I go past I think about her. About what it must have been like. The fear, the pain and then nothing. Just like that. Gone.
Something I hate with a passion is traffic reports. I know it sounds so stupid. But its just horrible i think. "Well mick, i'm up here in the chopper over the M5, theres been a smash and the traffic is backed up pretty bad, but the emergency crews are clearing the scene and you should be on your way home in no time. Oh and by the way buy with GIO insurance" *insert pathetic advertising campaign here*
Could you be any more horrible? Any more insensitive? I hear this on the radio in the car, and then the next day as I read the paper there is an article about newly orphaned Sarah who just lost her parents and two older siblings in a tragic car accident on the M5. You hear no reference to the "smash" there. Just a hotline to help sarah get on with her life. Everyone is sympathetic now. But not when it happens. Oh its such a trying thing to sit there in a long line of traffic whilst you wait for someones remains to be peeled away from the torn metal chassis that is their car.
People are so damn insensitive.
Well this brings me to the end of my newest update.
Who knows how long this phase will last for. Christmas and all that Jazz is only about 3 days away. We have friends coming up and new years and everything, so a bit of a hiatus for me then I guess.
To anyone who actually reads this and cares; drive safely. please.